The Worst Phase of My Life

The thing you fear most is that it happened because of something you did. I will never say that. But I will not pretend the timing.

Memories

I texted her. She replied "I don't know" — and she kept saying it. Whatever I said, that was the only word coming out of her mouth to me

That conversation went very badly

She started looking at me differently. Not a lovely look. Something disturbed behind it

I went silent. Things went quiet

September passed. November passed

Two supplementary exams. Not because of her. Because of the imbalance. I will never say it was her fault

Financial problems, family problems, friend problems. All of it at once

She came into a group of boys — respectfully, to the middle of us — and took me to her place. She did not have to do that

I call it the worst phase of my complete life. Everything got hurt. Everything got damaged

And I survived all of it happening at once